I still play it mostly because of all the time I spent in these years, it feels bad to quit after all this time. But I won't forget all the friends I have met.

Sometimes I wish I had never started playing it, sometimes I regret that almost 99% of the time I played in public servers, when the way the game should be really played (2 teams who play stopwatch for an objective) is the most fun. Tj servers are fun too, it's been years since I last joined one, but I still have nice memories of that, tj servers were the place to have real fun, where players who knew all the secrets were glad to share their knowledge, etc.

Recently I play only jaymod, despite the fact that I think etpro is the best mod I prefer to play relaxed and play jaymod, because it's more random, more dumb, and less demanding so I can play in autopilot and listen to some music and still going positive.
But in some of those situations where you play in 50 slot servers with all that lag, mortars, etc., it feels like lotto and I say to myself 'wtf? what am I doing here wasting my time playing this crappy lottery' I am still there, though. But it feels like the difference between playing tic-tac-toe (a game so retarded that even a kid can draw against a genius) and playing chess.

I think some aspects of the game are somewhat dumbed down now in most servers, servers with 2 many slots, short spawntimes killing one of the tactical aspect of the game, etc. so in a way et is really dying